Monday, May 31, 2010
Sunday, May 30, 2010
At this age, I'm scared. I am afraid I will be a sort of people my parent never wanted me to be. Maybe a Junkie, Rempit, Criminal, Blood Suckers, Vampire, Kong Kang, Rapper, nope. I not mean a singer, I mean a Rapper - the one who used their cock to a girl vagina freely without permission, in the easiest word, the one who raped a person.
I always freak out in high school after imagined in 2010 I will work in shopping complex. It is six days a week and never have a weekly leave in Sunday or Saturday. In a free time, I will spent my time in front of my PC playing games.
Besides me, on the table are a couple of beer and when I get bored, I’ll go to Sentul meet my friends and buy Marijuana, then I go back home, prepared a bong, seduce the papaya leaf and get stone, sleeping and playing games again, take pills, sucks my neighbour tits because she's bitch kinda-look-like plus everytime i saw her, she's seem so horny, hey, is woman horny every minutes? or they just horny after see me?
It's a quite odd to start conversation since I not knowing her so much plus her horny and gedik feelings. Luckily, she just move out in 2008. So I need to find another Bohsia. Okay, that just was what I imagine. Seriously it's just what I thought.
For me, it was so lame to remember everything happen. Because actually, there is nothing happen. So, everyday I tried to get rid that I did nothing. Okay, I always thinking something big will happen. Like going overseas and setup a accounting company. Become a Doctor or Engineer, Be a football star and playing with Chelsea FC. Okay, it just a dream okay. Fuck. What the fuck am I just wrote!! I ain't no stone.
Hey, five years without get stoned. It will be a title of the song. Okay, let just continue, good thing came in my life in 2006. I have a chance to further my study. Even it is far from home. There is the only chance i had. No multiple choice answers.
So, it still me. Waiting and watching. I believe, something bigger will come. No, something bigger is just happen. It's a great feeling.
I just bring a meaningless scroll after 3 years become a sailor in Dungun,